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title: "Ambitions are hard"
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date: 2016-11-09 19:43:00
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> Ambition: a cherished desire; a strong drive for success
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Sitting at my desk, lights off, headphones around my ear, I'm trying to concentrate on my next
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achievement, though small, it fits in my roadmap. At the time of working on _A_, I'm thinking about all the
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_B_s and _C_s and _D_s that I have to attend to next, they all beg for my attention, but I have to focus on A right now,
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so I increase the volume of music and focus.
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Half an hour past, I'm back to answering beggings of _B_s and _C_s and _D_s. I manage to
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finish _A_ after some time, move on to _B_ and a new _A_ arises in the process, the source never exhausts.
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After a day distributed between achievements, laying in the bad I start thinking about everything that I'm giving up in order to reach my dreams.
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There comes the never-satisfactory-comparison between dreams, is giving up X worth Y? There is never a right answer,
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that's when depression builds up, I feel bad throughout the day, but still I do what I have to do.
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I know there is a desire inside of me for playing, for having fun, sometimes for doing nothing,
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but it seems my _strong drive for success_ convinces me the delayed gratification of my dream is greater.
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Every once in a while, I break and go around nature, I forget about everything and just give in
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to my current moments, there is no _A_ or _B_ or any other fucking letter anymore, I'm free!
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After returning to work, I feel much better for a while, a week or two, and then the cycle restarts.
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I don't know if that's called life anymore.
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title: "Managing Ambitions"
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date: 2016-11-09 19:43:00
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> Ambition: a cherished desire; a strong drive for success
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Sitting at my desk, lights off, headphones around my ear, I'm trying to concentrate on my next
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achievement, though small, it fits in my roadmap. At the time of working on _A_, I'm thinking about all the
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_B_s and _C_s and _D_s that I have to attend to next, they all beg for my attention, but I have to focus on A right now,
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so I increase the volume of music and focus.
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Half an hour past, I'm back to answering beggings of _B_s and _C_s and _D_s. I manage to
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finish _A_ after some time, move on to _B_ and a new _A_ arises in the process, the source never exhausts.
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After a day distributed between achievements, laying in the bad I start thinking about everything that I'm losing in order to gain my dreams.
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There comes the never-satisfactory-comparison between dreams, is giving up X worth Y? There is never a right answer,
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that's when depression builds up, I feel bad throughout the day, but still I do what I have to do.
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I know there is a desire inside of me for playing, for having fun, sometimes for doing nothing,
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but it seems my _strong drive for success_ convinces me the delayed gratification of hitting my dream
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is greater. Okay that sounds fine, but I feel dead inside now, what about that?
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title: "Immortals go extinct"
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permalink: immortals-go-extinct/
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We are all going to die, we all know that well.<br /><br />
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Now I want to take you to a world of immortals where humans don't die,
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they live and live and live and... you know, live. From now on, pretend I'm a human
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on this world of immortals, I'm immortal bitches.
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![immortals chatting](/img/immortals.jpg)
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In this world, there is no excitement in jumping from a cliff or doing flips over walls
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or pretending to be a bird or even loving each other, in general, there is no
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excitement in any experience, because there is nothing to miss if I don't do that right now,
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I will always have another chance to do that again, even if that's going to be a thousand years from now,
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because you know, we're all good at waiting here.
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There is no technology and no fast transportation system here,
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because, hell, who gives a fuck about fast transportation systems.
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Who gives a shit about tools to harvest more food, or something you can write with,
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you can know about our meaningless past as much as you want, there are always people to tell you about that.
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Who cares if 2 + 2 = 4 or 5, I'm not going to die if the non-existing plane crashes because of an error,
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none of that is needed.
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We have an infinite amount of time to explore the globe, but we don't,
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because there is no fun in doing that, how is that, you might ask. Someone from your world told me
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I should explain it this way:
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> Simple mathematics we know says, in an infinite timespan, no other timespan is significant, basically,
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any number divided by infinity yields zero. Your neighbour could tell you about how he spent a thousand years
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exploring Earth, eating bugs and trying different methods to kill himself, and you could tell him
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he literally spent 0% of his life doing all that, same as you, who just stood there.
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![any fucking number / infinity = 0](/img/division-by-infinity.jpg)
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Now I don't understand much of that, but I had enough time, and nothing else to do, to repeat this to myself
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since he told me that until now.
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Here, in this world, we can't suicide, if that was an option, we know well that we would go extinct
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soon after finding out the fact that we are immortals, we really don't like this numb life.
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_Pooof_
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Alright I'm back. You see, we need death, we really do, without death our lives
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would be meaningless, we would have no purpose. Okay we would probably still [contribute to increase of entropy of the universe](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HxTnqKuNygE), but that's not what we _want_ to be here for, we want a higher purpose in life, and it's death that gifts us this
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higher purpose.
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When I was a kid, I was told that in order to stay alive after death, you have to submit your name on this planet, and
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in this universe if possible. I know, that might sound ridiculous, but aren't we all fighting for the same thing, but in our own
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ways? Maybe you just want to be remembered between a specific group of people (and that's perfectly fine) or you might
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actually want to become a global role model, like Gandhi, Albert Einstein and people alike, it doesn't matter, what matters is,
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we all want to be remembered for what we've done in our way to the end.
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Immortals go extinct, but mortals find a mission to accomplish before the
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deadline. Be grateful for this gift of death.
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<!--It's not all about being famous, it's about being role model for a lot of people, there are lots of famous people and celebrities-->
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